Kayla-Kun-31592

Your smile is contagious it lights up my heart. Your sillier than me and I wonder how I never noticed before. How has it been only a few months, when it feels like forever? We are so easy as smooth as cream, and you are just as sweet. When I think of you I light up, I know you aren't perfect and neither am I but when we are together it doesn't matter. You like me for all my quirks and I like yours. I want to say so badly that four letter word, I know its true. But I can't help but wonder if you return it, I know you care its in your eyes, your words, the way the hold me like I'm fragile and you don't want to ever let

Things were dark awhile back my emotions like a yo-yo up and down all the time, but I hid it behind a mask free of pain. If I didn't acknowledge it, maybe it would disappear a puff of air never there hidden away, no despair. It didn't go away but I held on I persevered, didnt let go. I didnt let myself fall. So here I stand light as air my smile is real nothing to fear. Some call me an optimist HAH! You should hear my thoughts someday. Some call me naive maybe I am. But none of that matters Because here I am light relaxed happy and nothing can change this moment in time.

       "Momma?" trembled out the young boy. He opened his eyes, but it made no difference the darkness was still as unyielding as ever. The boy was far to old to be afraid of the dark, but this darkness was different. He could tell. The same way a mouse senses a cat in the room without seeing it. All of him hurt and he could feel what could only have been blood sluggishly sliding down his face. He tried to call out again, with no results. The air was heavy with nothing. He couldn't see or hear anything. He vaguely remembered hearing rain and listening to his parents fighting in the car. He remembered being scared and angry at his daddy for

My life is at a cross roads Im standing in the middle stairing at the possibilites. Stuck though where I am being slowly swallowed by a rut that gets slowly larger, fed by solitude, and fear. Fear of putting ones self out there. Fear of streching ones mind and putting ones self out of their box. So please someone find my pathetic self and pull me out of this hole. Save me from myself push me back onto the road. Cause Im scared I've got this fear. Fear of putting ones self out there. Fear of streching ones mind and putting ones self out of their box. Pull me out So I may choose my own path. Not the one that people

Ba-      bump Ba-      bump goes my heart as steady as a clock. Like the Tick-      tock it makes, the beating of my heart measures my life over and over until the cogs stop moving. But unlike a machine my heart cannot be restarted whenever the need arises. So I treasure the melody of life knowing it will end. Each moment is precious never to be relived exactly as it was before. Unlike the clock where each tick matches each tick and each tock was as the one before. Ba-      bump Ba-      bump.

Looking at the photographs remembering better times. Three of us smiling a picture perfect moment frozen forever in an instant for times like this. Cleaning up the clutter packing boxes another chapter of the story closed. When you stumble upon the old album and look at scenes past. Smiling faces turn strained, what once was close slowly morphs into distance, once metaphorically now becomes physical. But that chapters done, this one too with more to come. So we freeze these moments scene by scene a chapter at a time, till soon we have a play and everyones a character good, or bad or shades of grey. Everyone has a part

Your halo is broken your wings are bent. It seems you have finally fallen. I could see the end coming and I mourn for what you feel is lost. Im not sorry that you're here though, Now you can be you and not fear. They say Heaven is a paradise, but I've seen the Angels cling to their Ideals and its not what I think you had in mind. So down from the clouds you spiral, Emotions conflicting, Guilt for what has happened wars with the freedom you now have. Fallen you now are, broken for all the world to see. Fear not though for I shall still be here. I will pick up the pieces and catch you mid-flight. I will not judge and you won

Fold your hands my childe, say your prayers and close your eyes. The end has come upon you. Beg for my mercy and you shall recieve not                     however look ahead with determination and your soul may be at peace. Cowards die at the first sign of me, but accept your fate and I might be kind. I am the shadow following you home, the monster under your bed, the image you scoff at in the daylight. I revel in your fear, the power that it allows me. Face your fears with eyes wide open, do not cower before me and I may be kind

Go ahead and yell at me I'll be the brick wall that you need to see to scream. I'll sit and take the fall, the blame. So others won't feel the pain. I'll see and hear and face, all you need to show to me without disgrace. So dont worry about me I'll sit and wait. Let all the words fall at my feet. Watch as the colors of your soul swirl around the room. Blacks and reds and greys all flowing with no rest. Bouncing off my walls. So here I sit take all your anger and the hate. So the world won't feel a thing like everything is fine. Even though its not.

No one knows me like you know me. You know my deepest secrets my darkest shadows of the soul.                                 Fly my little birdie, escape my trap.                                 Save yourself from my enternal grasp. You see these evils in my heart, hear my evil laugh and here you stay.                                  Fly my birdie save yourself                                  forget my already damned soul,                                  for there is no rescuing me from my sins. I gaurd myself from your searching face but somehow you see, what others dont. I may be evil I may be cruel but I feel tha